Dark Side of Obesity

Family

I am incredibly mad at my family and myself.  I do not have the self control and will to say no yet.  But my family seems like they are almost out to make me fail.  They are cooking huge, bad meals and eating out every day.  My mom even offered to come home from work to bring me McDonald’s.  They know what I am trying to do but they are not supportive AT ALL.  They buy the food I want when I ask them, but they get annoyed or walk away when I talk about my exercise or when I leave for a run.  I wish I could be stronger and so no when they bring really yummy food but its hard. And most of the time I give in and hate myself later. My mom claims to be supportive when we talk but she cooks really bad food and then I have to cook my own dinner.  I don’t mind doing that but they look at me disapprovingly and like I am outcast.  It is almost like they are waiting for me to give up and go back to my bad habits.  I am not going to fail and I am not going to be fat all my life.  I just wish my family would support me and not keep shoving food at me.  They disapprove when I don’t eat and they disapprove when I eat the bad food that they do.  I just cannot win.